You, who are so fond of denying the intrinsic existence of ideas, are the battleground of ferocious conflicts between ideas--your psyche has been ravaged like a land that's known generational war. You don't doubt that ideas exist--how could you? You wish that they didn't exist--you will them not to exist, as you would debilitating pain. You aspire to nominalism--it's the faith you want, not your true faith, which is idealism.